SPM

It was 7 years ago when I had my SPM. So bila tengok budak2 sekarang nervous giler nak amik result aku hanya mampu senyum.

Been there,done that.

Nak dijadikan cerita, I had to take my SPM result dekat Gua Musang Kelantan (PLKN) and feeling dia sangat la weird, imagine ramai2 tunggu dengan baju biru PKN duduk macam nak dengar ceramah. And it takes FOREEEEVER for our names to be called out. And when it was my turn, I wished they hadn't called my name out. I did not get straight A's. DID NOT. Being a very naive 17 year old, time tu rasa macam dunia nak kiamat dah. Da imagine lepas ni kerja jadik makcik cleaner jela sebab result gitu. YE VERY DRAMATIC. After the results, I lipat kertas kecik2 pastu sorok kat tepi beg baju (sampai sekarang I dunno where that slip went haha). I was moody for I think 3 days. Ummi ok je. It was just me.


Then I masuk Asasi Sains UM (ye,result bukan la teruk sangat,drama je lebey hehe). Usaha sungguh2 nak dapat 4 flat, konon2 nak jadik doctor. Alas,dapat 3++. Time tu lagi sekali, rasa macam God is not being fair. I worked so hard but did not get the results I was hoping.


Reluctantly I got in Science Faculty UM. But still I did not gave up on my dream on becoming a doctor. I applied to go to Indonesia. AYAH PULAK TAK KASIK. Then there's another hope, second year, if you perform well, boleh apply course Biochemistry then lepas tu masuk medic (kire double degree la). I got Microbiology (second year is where the all the Biology majors were categorize in smaller divisions). MICROBIOLOGY. Frust tahap orang putus chenta. I hate microbiology.


Then, I graduated. I finally got out of my shell and actually see the world. I got a job I love, and passionate about it. I saw that life is more than just getting A's in your exams. I couldn't careless of what people think and will not tolerate people who tries to decide my life and what i should do with it. (nasihat boleh, but forcing me is a BIG NO NO)


And after seeing my life as I go thru, i realized that Allah had better plans for me. He gave me what's best for me. Things I didn't know. I realized all the times that i complained and whined that my life was going downhill where it actually did not. I feel slightly embarrassed at myself. Now, I am thankful that things did go as it was. Failure and disappointment is what mold me to what I am today.


So, live life to the fullest, and remember, every cloud has a silver lining :)

Nadia Yusof